Our Last day in Macau

I was just kidding Kuya Aries to take me somewhere because it's our last day there and he agreed that he will take us to Guia Hill. It was just a walking distance from their place and the cable ride is like 3 patakas(15php) The beautiful garden at the entrance greeted us on our way. We hike uphill because the trail is very beautiful and you can see the lush park with birds and monkeys and many more. The view at the top is breathtaking. I am not kidding. You can see half of Macau and you'll appreciate its beauty even more when you are at the top of Guia Hill. The city skyline is the best and amazing view. The forestry are also a historical landmark and you'll learn a lot while you walk. Then we played at the exercise center. We took a lot of pictures. By the way, I didn't sweat on my way to the top because its so cold. LOL! The We had our firs ever cable car ride. ^_^ I have fun.. super fun. But in a few hours we will be on our way to Manila. Back to reality again..

Macau Day 4

We went to esprit. Guess what I didn't buy anything because I am so thrifty. Darn I fell in love with the red jacket that is exactly my size and didn't even buy it.. But ate and kuya shop so many items. Then we went to San Malo to shop again. Then we ate at a Potuguese restaurant in Taipa courtesy of Mr. Martin of course. I ate my first ever medium rare steak and it was delicious.. Super... The we went to Venetian Hotel again and now I am ready to discover Venetian. The hotel was 100% amazing. With the ceiling murals that looked like a skyline and the gondolas and the posh boutiques and shops and restaurants.. It totally wowed me. Ate, bought a tifanny necklace that caused a hefty 5000 pataka(25000php). That's a lot of money! I will not spend that much on a piece of jewelry. It was kuya's gift to her. And kuya lost 90, 000 on the casino.. That's super so much money to loose in gambling. I don't even have the guts to spend 500pesos for a blouse much more to a casino. Well at the end of the day you'll realize you can't turn back the time. And no matter what you do you lost it already so just move on with that!

Macau Day 3

We went to McDonald's for lunch. I was amazed again. The interior was very chick. And take note the food servers are oldies. Yeah you are reading it right. Like my mom's age 40+. I was really happy that the Macau people still have the opportunity to work even if they are old. Unlike here if you are old you have to stay home and just watch tv and chitchat outside. But there they are taking pride of it.. I salute them for that. Then afterwards we went to the flea market to hunt for some good stuffs that are cheap and fashionable. Then we went to San Malo, Fishermans Wharf and Taipan.

Guess what every hotel chains got a complimentary bus from the ferry station. When I say its complimentary its free.. Then we went to Ate's friend Mr. Martin. His house is super gorgeous. Every corner is gold. Its much more of a presidential suite. And their place is considered to be for upscale individual only because its super expensive. Then Mr. Martin treated us to the special restaurant nearby for shabu shabu. Its the #1 shabu-shabu restaurant in town. And I brought my magic spoon and fork again. hehehe.. I wasn't embarass at all even if the person in front of me are elite. His family is so nice and warm and his 2 nephews calvin and his bro are so goodlooking. Super goodlooking and take note they speak tagalog perfectly. ^_^ But the only problem with Mr. Martin is he wants to feed and feed and feed and feed. He won't let your plate go empty. So even if you say your full you can't say no because I am afraid I might offend him if you won't eat because he is the one serving foods on our plate. :(

After that super delectable dinner and fullness.. We head to Venetian Hotel and the bad part of it was I am not feeling well. So I went to the CR and puke. And i felt better after that. So.. so.. Even if Kuya wanted to stay longer and me to scoured the beautiful and most talk about hotel, ate decided to go home. So I can rest.

Hongkong Day Trip

My Day 2 in Macau, and immediately we took a side trip in Hongkong. It was almost afternoon when we left. geez.. The ferry ride was so cool but kinda expensive though It cost me 150hkd for a one way ride. But heck it was worth it. Me, my ate and kuya dict got a separate seat # and I end up sitting up with a chinese woman. She was nice but when I asked her about the toilet she cannot understand me. :(( My bladder is about to explode any minute and the ferry is finishing up boarding all the passengers. After 5minutes of describing about my nature call she immediately finger point the toilet. And as I was finishing up in the toilet the ferry was blasting its motor. I was a bit afraid that I might end up stuck in the toilet so I hurried up. When I was on my sit the very good lady gave me an embarkation card for hongkong the problem was I don't have a pen. I lost it somewhere. So i have to borrow the crews pen instead. Then when we arrive at the Hongkong ferry terminal another problem arise. The immigration officer won't let kuya dict in because she is asking some documents and kuya don't have it with him. So we immediately live the line. And the ferry police talked to us and asks some questions. The problem again was language barrier. Darn.. They can't even tell what documents they in english so we don't know what is the problem. Why they can't let Kuya in. Good this there is a filipino guy who happened to pass by and asks what's wrong and we told him the synopsis of the problem and the filipino guy said that all you need is the old embarkation that was given at the airport. But kuya don't have it because he was in Macau for almost 3 months and he threw his copy away because he never thought he might need it again. Super thanks to the filipino guy and no thanks to the police and immigration officer..

We finally entered Hongkong's Kowloon ferry station.. it was so pretty. A ferry station inside a mall is a brilliant idea. It's not just a typical mall but it was high end. Its similar with Shangrila-Mall in EDSA. So.. so.. We proceed to the MTR because we are heading to Mongkok to shop at the ladies market. I just bought a few souvenir items, a bag, a few silver jewelry and a chinese dress for my niece. Because I still find everything expensive. But my ate bought a lot as in a lot. She's a certified shopaholic. Then we ate at a nearby kiosk and it was delicious. And mind you I brought my own fork and spoon because I don't know how to use the chopstick. LOL! Then, when we decided to go home. We almost miss the ferry back it was like 2minutes before the ferry will sail and we are running and rushing to the first ferry terminal because they will leave us any minute and it was the last ferry to macau i think... It was like joining the extra challenge or the amazing race. whew!

My tips for the day is:
1. Bring ballpen
2. Always keep your travel documents with you especially embarkation card
3. Carry loose change
4.Wear comfortable clothing
5. Ready yourself to the walkaton

My first ever Macau trip

My flight to macau was exactly 8pm today Nov. 22, 07. But I arrived to the airport at past 5pm so I can check-in earlier and I am going to wait for my cousin there. Since I arrived early I did go to the OFW center just to sit and let the time passed by since I don't know where are the sitting area for the passengers that haven't checked-in yet. So there. I know I can loiter at the OFW center and at the same time I can watch a cable channel tv. While waiting for the flight monitors schedule. The OFW center was a nice place to be with while waiting. There are a food stalls which of course pricey but I'm sure you will not mind the price if you are hungry. Many pinay FA's often went to the center as well while waiting for their flight. Anyhow, I do love this center because I am fond of watching people and observing people. That's why when I was younger I dreamed of working in the airport so I can see the people just come and go. Thats when I realize I wanted to be just like them. Come and go for a job and not just stuck here in the Philippines forever.

so.. so.. My cousin arrived past 6pm and we checked-in immediately at cebu pacific counter and we chitchat. And the lady of the cebu pacific counter asked me If I have sufficient funds to travel. I found the question absurd.. Totally! Who in the right mind will travel without sufficient money. I was shocked to know that the terminal fee increased from 700 to 750php. What is that for? That's too much. Other countries don't even ask for a fee and yet their airport is very posh and sophisticated. Oh well, if we want to travel might as well bear with it. So there, our flight was delayed. Arrgh. I am too excited to see Macau and yet the flight is delayed. Hell.. We arrived at almost 12 midnight and it was so chilly. super.. brrr... The place is so clean. The only problem we have was the communication problem. They hardly speak English as in. Including the roadsigns are Chinese. Darn! There are lights sparkling everywhere. And the place is so lively. It is truly a beautiful night attraction. Well, when we arrived at Kuya Dicts place I was mesmerized when I saw that they are living in a posh condo with 3 bedroom 2bathroom a large veranda. And even if its cold in macau every room has aircondition including the sala...

Hey, it's kinda late. I might as well sleep.

He's a stranger

Something have left my life and i don't know where it went to...All the things she said to me changed my perspective in every way.

i'd rather be six feet under...than bear the thought that she's no longer the person i knew she was...

i had the only precious thing i ever possessed and placed in a pedestal...now everything seem to be dark and empty.

i don't know her face anymore or feel the person that i adore.

i don't know his thoughts these days, we're strangers in an empty space.

i don't understand his heart nor mine, we might as well be strangers in another time.

everybody's changing and i just thought he will ALWAYS be the same.

i just wished i hadn't known the changes in his, as it hurts me more than she could imagine and it will...forever.

he fought so much for his ground that it looped back on him...despite all our bickerings i respected and adored him for all that he fought for...but now, i don't know anymore. My mind is utterly twisted with the complexities of love and life!

FOREVER?

Forever is just a word. Nothing lasts forever. You have to be stupid, and naive to ever think the one you love will always be there for you. No matter how hard you try, it will never happen. No matter how hard you try to make that other person happy, or try and work it out... you'll fail. I used to think very optimistically about everything and everyone. It was a good quality, seeing the best in people. But now I've realized, the worst in them just outshines sometimes and you have to live with it. Looking up just means it'll hurt worse when you're brought down. Right now in my life, I should be out having fun... not being in love. Who needs love, anyway? It's just another excuse to be controlled and hurt. Maybe someday I'll find the person who I'm meant to be with in this world, but until then - fuck it all. I'm letting the real Weng shine once again, so girls hold onto your guys... I'm back on the market.

Trust

The most important factor in any relationship. To be nerdy and oh so analogical; relationships are like a video game. You start at the bottom with little or no information. As you make your way through dungeons and forests, or levels and stages, you earn points or power or any substance that helps you progress further into the game. You battle opponents both small and large and some can even be considered bosses: The big baddies. If you are able to defeat them, you earn more of that substance. Trials and tribulations are those dungeons and forests. Exes and wrongdoers are the opponents. Trust is that substance. In order for a relationship to grow stronger, you must earn their trust.

Nobody turns to a stranger and says "I have insane explosive diarrhea and occasionally can be found tied up as a gimp while my girlfriend whips me" and manages to find a new best friend. Unless they're a freak. And so are you. (And no, I don't have explosive diarrhea. As for being a gimp...well leather is kind of comfortable. SIKE!JK) We don't start off that way. Because the fact is we all have a side we're afraid to show someone else for fear they may a)reject us or b)ridicule us. It is only through many experiences and connections can we truly be at peace with ourselves to share our deepest darkest secrets.

In my mind, there are pretty much four levels of trust:

- Acquaintance: Someone you are familiar with. A person you might see every now and then but actually have very little knowledge of their past, their present or their possible future. And likewise, they neither know yours.
- Friend: Someone you enjoy being around. It may or may not be often but the experience is usually joyous when you do. A person you've spoken to a number of times and have broken through that acquaintance wall.
- Confidant: A person who knows your past, your present and your sought out future. The person you usually turn to when in need or seek help from. They are your brethren, your kindred spirits. Someone you see as a life long friend.
- Soul Mate: Your significant other. Someone who has delved deep into your soul. Someone who knows you truly for who you are and loves every part of it. A person who does not give and expect to receive and thus who has no ulterior motive other than to enjoy your happiness along with theirs.

For most people, they usually have a cap or limit as to how much they are willing to trust someone. A glass ceiling so to speak. Most are acquaintances, some are friends, fewer are confidants. And there can only be one soul mate.

But what happens if trust is broken? It is a rough road back to stability if that moment ever arrives. When I picture it, I symbolize trust as a rope. It starts off as one thread. It's thin, lanky and easy to break. But then it begins to weave together with others. Soon there are layers, hundreds of threads wrapped around each other making it more and more difficult to sever. Eventually, thousands. And it is nearly indestructible. But it isn't.

The problem with trust is that when it is broken at the confidant and soul mate level, it usually results in anarchy. Destruction of the mind, body and spirit. It is truly one of the most painful experiences a person can go through and it usually invokes a change of character when all is said and done. And almost always, the change is contempt. Not for others but for the feeling. It frightens people to experience it again. So much so that they begin to close off certain levels of trust. They build walls around their heart and minds. It becomes locked away, sheltered by a huge fortress. And they become distrusting.

This is the path to the dark side. LOL couldn't resist. I read my own writing very dramatically.

But that's how most people become and you can't blame them. I'm not like that; I can't be. I'm optimistic and light hearted. I like to believe that all the risks of being hurt are always worth the joy of being loved. And you know what? They always are.