I always wonder if there is really someone that’s
meant for each one of us. You would always hear
them say, someone is dreaming of you somewhere
out there, just as you are dreaming of this
person you are yet to meet. Well, personally I
don’t know if I should believe this. Umm, maybe
partly. I mean, not that I am holding on to this
thought. I can’t also say whether I’m a hopeless
romantic or what. But with the things that I used
to hear, and with the knowledge that I know about
it.. I just can’t tell. Laughs! I’m not really an
expert when it comes to matters of heart but my
friends would always say I’m like “Dyosa ng Love
Quotes and Payos”, Answering Machine, and all
that. They say I seem to know a lot from these
when I talk like I am saying, "been-there, done-
that" But on the contrary, no. Definitely no,
especially when talking to experiences. And hey,
did I mention that I belong to this federation
GBGID (Goodbye Girl I’m Done)? Haha! Believe it or
not but in my 29 years never did I feel how it is
to be really in love. Or shall I say to be really LOVED..
I mean, I don’t even know the
feeling coz I would always hesitate. When I’m
aware that I’m going to fall further I tend to
hold back. And I don’t know why.
It’s tough to pretend you don’t feel the stigma
of being single in a society that seems to
celebrate coupledom. All around you
the "marrieds" have their family-full lives and
constant companionship, and there you are— in
full Ally McBeal-ish spinster splendor.
On the other hand, I can’t deny the fact that
it’s good to be single. Nothing to worry about,
having your freedom and all, and just plainly
having the time of your life.
And by the way, I don’t see myself getting
married. Of course I believe in marriage but I
don’t think that’s my scene. Maybe it has
something to do with my being realistic. And
realization sometimes is right there in front of
you. To see those marriages turned into nothing,
the next thing you know you’re an urban legend.
But just in case I get to realize that I would
rather swallow it all and enter into something
with a lot of uncertainties at stake than to
forever live alone that’s more miserable, maybe,
just maybe, I would have to reconsider it.
According to Ally McBeal, never settle with
someone who you think is just the ONLY ONE and
not THE ONE. Marry someone who does make your
heart bounce. But what if you’re not lucky enough
like some people who get the chance to choose the
person they would want to spend the rest of their
lives with? What would you do when the time comes
you feel like having a family of your own
yet, "Dammit! He’s the only one out there who
wants to be with me" Would you rather take it or
hold on to the thought that some people are
really meant to be alone?
Anyway, I know I’m too young to think about it.
I’m not afraid tracking down by myself either.
But at least just to experience how it is to be
loved and in-love.. Whatever! All I can say is
whoever that f**king someone is, he should be
the one who would make or break me, and who
wouldn't just rock my bed but also my
WORLD!
~ALLY McBEAL~