The day we said Goodbye!

This afternoon after work I checked my facebook wall and found a wall post from my friend Tars, she said something like there's a bad news and it wasn't clear.  The only specific was a name "Kirby Delina" our other friend and she's like asking for a contact person about the relatives of kirbz.  And

QUIZ: What kind of bride will you be??

I think every girl's dream is to be a bride someday. Some are hopeful in finding their prince charming riding a horse. But the search is really rough and tough considering how many billion people on earth existed. But somehow love really find its way.. Geez, I sound so melodramatic.. I've been there until I give up searching.. And then one day, this prince came. He really did not propose as the typical proposal like dinner or something close. No, he just exclaimed that he wanted me to be his wife.. My heart fell really. It's not the first proposal that I heard but I think its the time telling me that I am ready and my heart is yelling a big YES! OMG, I know my story is so corny..but heck.. I don't care to be corny coz that's just how love is..

To make this story short I am also that hopeful girl that will get married in due time. That's why I took this test.. I just wanna find out what kind of Bride will I be in the future..

I hope not the bridezella type. LOL!

You Will Be A Modern Bride!

While you aren't ready to throw away all wedding traditions, you want a wedding with a twist You're more inspired by celebrity weddings on E! than from bridal magazines Whether this means getting married on the beach barefoot or a mariachi band for the reception... Your wedding will be a blend of old and new - white dress cocktail, personalized vows, whatever suites you!!! If you wanna take this test and find out what kind of bride will you be pls visit this site: Blogthings

REAL

Some expect me to be perfect, for nobody is.. and I am not.. I have my mistakes, weaknesses and fears... But I'm soo contented for whatever life I have now and it doesn't matter where I came from... My title or my family name... Its always my dignity as a person that counts.... You may see me as a stone not a gem, and I don't give a d*mn! I know who I am.... How i care for the people I Love... What i think and what I feel.... Me, myself and I.. Not perfect but just the way I want it...

Expired

So these past few days I was do damn tired. I am sick and tired of my job. Really not because I hate it but I am really exhausted becoz we have a lot of patients everyday and felt like neverending and guess what my days with Dra Maryam are over. Becoz she'll have an exit. And she is complaining a lot to me that she is tired and yada..yada..yada... heck, she is the one who put herself on it and she's dragging me to hell like craziness with patients.. And I kid her, I told her that friday and that is today is her expiry date.. She just laugh. and true it's her last day here at work. I gave her my gift and gift for babies.. I guess she like it.. Me and my bf choose that gift to her. My bf bid her farewell via fone.. And I've heard what she said to him.. She said to my bf, "Promised me that you'll take care of Rowenah" I don't know but thats so sweet.. We all know that after her last days here in Riyadh we really can't tell if we'll see each other again. I will definitely miss her and her 3 crazy girls who always gives me kiss and hugs every night. They often tell me that they love me.

I will also miss her baby sitter Mama Halima who loves us same like mom.. Gives us food and ask me everytime we see each other how I am. She always had a smile on her face. I can't see any hardship on her. But I manage to give a smile back though daintly I hope she understand that I am busy. And give us some homemade food and pastries too.. She is indeed a great person. Though we hardly understand each other I know she has good intentions and a pure heart.. She taught us always good value and that is to save for the future. I give her a kiss and a hug.

Parting is sad it makes my eyes teary. It is a part of our life that we can't hold back. We just have to live and deal with it. Wherever life will take us I hope we enjoyed the ride. I will surely not forget the great people I met here.

My Journal

I'ts a rare occasion that I write about what's going on with my life these days. Not that I want the world to care, coz I know they don't I just want to write becoz I want to.. LOL! Oh geez, I really missed writing and totally missed blogging, it's been a while really.. quite a while now.... I guess I am busy with stuff or just don't feel like writing.. I have written many blogs and I am definitely a member of most blogsites here in the blogosphere and now I come to a point that I will fuse all my blogs into one before I will have a memory gap of my username and password bcoz they are so many. And I will focus on this blog.. I've decided to write everything here. This will be my official smorgasborg blog.

Well you see I had this thing of many little stuff somewhere here in the net that due to my memory gap it has been deleted.. It was so unfortunate of me not to be able to recover it. It was too late. I had many nursing reviewers there, some softwares, journals about nursing, poetry, and some story that for sure you'll be able to relate and makes you wonder and think about your life and how you lived it and others are living it. sort of like that.. It's so sayang"".. It's like a bundle of roses and buckets of chocolates that gone to the bin.. Gosh! Anyhow though it's lost I am rebuilding it again.. I will have something new for you guys. That's a promise..

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Lost

I just came to a point in my life where I wanna break down... Cry... and Give Up...

It's been a long long time since I've waited for chances and I dunno where the heck is that chances and we haven't crossed paths yet! Darn chances!

Why is life so freakin' hard to live in the first place?

Arrgh! O_x

My #1 Female Surgeon

Yesterday, I went to the Doctor to have a routine check up. I was anxious of course about the result of the exams and what the Doctor will say about my condition if I have any. being an nurse I am afraid of putting myself in the Doctor's clinic for check ups and I hate medications. Yeah. I don't want to take medicines when I get sick. I stick to the water therapy myself. LOL! :D Anyhow as my anxiety level rises on my way to the clinic I kept telling myself if I will not consult her now it might aggravate further to some serious conditions (if there's any). Being in a state of paranoia that I might have this and that it's now time to put an end to my worries. So I just have to conquer my biggest fear and that's being face to face to a doctor for a check up. I know its funny but heck I am totally mortified whenever I feel something and I have to see a doctor. I just don't know why. hahaha.

And so I finally arrived at her clinic and my anxiety is escalating while waiting for my name to be called. Then after a couple of minutes of waiting I was finally there face to face with her, telling my concerns. She was such an adorable lady with a very vibrant and happy personality which eases my anxiety away. She's so nice and I felt homey and relaxed in her clinic. Her aura brings calmness to my weary thoughts and my soul. She has an adorable face with a jolly smile. She doesn't look toxic at all which is a great relief to me. And guess what I don't need surgery. That's a plus. All I have was a minor case only that's no need to be worry about. That's a great news. Ü

Well, my surgeons name is Doctora Sherry Lee
She has a clinic in Cardinal Santos in Greenhills Mon-Sat 10-12noon
and at Clinica Manila in SM Megamall Bldg B Wed and Friday 1-4pm

By the way her consultation fee is very cheap its just 500php.
I wrote about her because this is my way of thanking her.

Minor Road Accident

It's totally proven that texting or smsing, or calling through your cellphone can cause you your life. But people are so stubborn specially drivers they can't get a second to drive to their destinations before they do their own business such as calling or txting.

Well here is my story, I took a jeepney on my way home today. As we we're on the road there a little traffic because it's the end of the month and today is the payday of almost all employees. Then suddenly a private tamaraw fx bumped the jeepneys behind (there are a lot of us inside this vehicle) Darn it. We saw the driver of tamaraw fx txting prior to the accident. Good thing nobody got hurt. Plus the jeepney driver is so polite and he didn't curse the other driver or there will be chaos. Darn again. This wouldn't happen at all if the driver was driving cautiously, because a little caution can take us home safely to our loved ones. So please dear bloggers as the saying goes "Don't drink and drive" you might want to add don't use your mobile phone while driving. Well you can of course if its necessary but if its not just wait till you park to your destination.

Note: Jeepneys and tamaraw fx are a common public transpo vehicles in the Philippines.

I felt so low

I went to SM Megamall today to buy some stuff. I don't have much money but a thousand bucks. I felt so poor. How far can a thousand bucks go? I can't even find a nice shirt that is worth only 200-300 bucks. D*mn. Everything is expensive nowadays. I need to spend my money wisely because I don't have a job yet. I wish I can survive my money crisis. I wish to find a job soon!

Today is a holiday

I never knew that today is a holiday. On my way to the bank I wonder why almost all establishments are closed. Then there is no traffic at all. I immediately asked Mr. Fx driver if today was a holiday. And he said yes it is. Today is the EDSA revolution. Funny. I didn't knew that part of history happened on a February. LOL! Maybe the passenger behind me is thinking where on earth did I came from and I didn't knew that. Hahaha. I was hybernating and I am not fond of watching news nowadays.

Clear sky!

This is how amazing the sky was on my flight back here in Manila. It was breath taking indeed. Thanks to Cebu Pacific for the safe journey and we landed safely. :D

Ran out of Gas

Our rainy night out!

Tonight is my last night here in Bohol and my cousin invited me out for a drink in a nearby town. So the gang(my cousins and bro) get ready for the night out after dinner. And we took the tricycle so we can all fit in. We went to bato beach but the beer was kinda expensive so we just enjoy the place took a few photo and left then we head up for another karaoke bar to found out that it was close already. We went again to look for another place until it started to rain. Then the misfortune struck us, the vehicle ran out of gas and its raining heavily. It was past nine actually and most of the town folks are sleeping and stores are closed already. It was a bit scary and funny though. Scary because there are a few street lamps and lots of trees and dark creepy locations and funny because of what happened. So my brother had no choice but to push the vehicle while on the quest of luck that some store sells gasoline. My tomboy niece helped him in pushing while we are inside the vehicle. No motorists bother to help us not even locals. After 4 barrios of pushing and laughing we finally reached a house that sells gas and we are relieved. Then we proceed to the karaoke bar sing our heart out and drink beer even if its cold outside.

an unforgettable experience! whew. Lesson of the story make sure that the vehicle is full tank or better yet bring a long a gasoline container for reserves.

Night swimming at Maberes Beach resort

Since we are all loveless this valentines me and my cousin went to Maberes beach resort for a night swimming. It was a breezy night and you can actually tell that anytime soon rain will pour down. There was no one but us in the pool area. We are welcomed by a couple of frogs though. LOL! But that doesn't stop us from dipping in the water. After chasing the frogs out of the water we dive in. The water is freezing but amidst the cold we had a lot of fun. Then rain pours heavily and the wind from the sea blew and still we are swimming. Yes you're reading it right. it's like being in a freezer. We don't wanna change yet because we will get wet again because its super windy. And after swimming we had some beer and karaoke then we went home. My muscle are so stiff because its very cold. And I said to myself I will not swim again on rainy nights. hehehe..

performing arts event

this are the photos taken at Mater Dei College which some of my nieces, nephews and cousins participated. Watch how colorful their costumes are. Its one of our bonding moments. I enjoyed it..

Treasure Island

It was my tito's b-day so me and my family went swimming in Panggangan Island, Calape Bohol. It was just a small family gathering that is once in a lifetime and we enjoyed even though I didn't took the plunge. The backdrop was really nice. Super nice. I've met the other members of the family that I didn't knew, I've seen my grandma on my father side. I've seen my other aunt's and uncle's. Then one of my uncle on my mother side who happened to be there and approached me not knowing who I was and asked me where are we from. I thought he was kidding and then in a snap he recognized me. I had a lot of fun actually just playing with my 2 1 year old nephews and niece and my 2 bubbly cousins.

Mosquito bites

After a couple of days here in Bohol this is what I got. Even if I use off lotions and we used katol at night the mosquito still wants a piece of me. I dunno why. My cousin who slept beside me has no bites at all. :( I thinks that's weird. Thank God that our place is not a dengue hot spot or else I'll be in big trouble!

Lesson of the story: Use of the mosquito net. But this is not advisable if you are claustrophobic.

Bohol Trip

Tomorrow afternoon my family will be living for Bohol for a vacation. We're going to stay there for almost a month. :D That's neat.. We'll my ancestral heritage is from there so we really don't have a problem on accommodation. The only expenses that will incur is our food, airfare and pocket money. Thats it.

For those of you who are unfamiliar with Bohol, it is located in Visayas near Cebu. The famous white sand beaches in Panglao Island,(there are a lot of white sand beaches in bohol that is not commercialize) Chocolate Hills, Loboc River, oldest church and many others are the famous landmark in our province. We have also a version of Sinulog which is known as Sandugo Festival which is held also every January.

The beaches of Bohol is truly a paradise. A natural wonder with powdery white sand and shallow clear waters. It is a solemn and peaceful place. Where you can unite with nature.

This is one of Bohol's finest forest in Bilar. A must see..



I always love this place because its so laid back. With friendly people, very good food, nice scenery and of course for the simplicity of life people are showing here. But, mind you even if this place is simple its not that left behind. There are also cable channels, internet shops, wi-fi spot, a tiny yet posh mall with a huge parking lot. Everything is so accessible here.

From Manila the flight to Tagbilaran(city proper) takes 1 hour and 45 minutes only. Either by Cebu Pacific or Air Philippines. I'm not sure if Asian Spirit still operates there. But there's no harm in inquiring 'ayt? You can also travel by a ferry. Either by negros navigation, super ferry - this two is direct to Tagbilaran port, or sulpicio lines via cebu port. Don't worry taxi's and hotel services are available in Bohol.

So there. I will post my pics soon so watch out..

My travel advisory tip: DON'T FORGET TO
1. Bring bikini's of course (LOL)
2. sunblock
3. Mosquito repellant or anti-mosquito lotion
4. digi cam/video cam
5. loose bills
6.preferably a globe sim because some area don't have a smart/sun signal
7.comfy clothes and slippers.


Check out their website if you wanna know more about my home town.

gotta pack now..

Dad got home

My dad got home from his work today. And when I saw him I saw disappointment in his face. I am so humiliated that i just give him a timid smile. I know what my dad is thinking he is thinking that he is a failure in the fathering aspects of his life; raising his family alone. Its very hard for him because he is the only breadwinner in the family and almost everyone in the family depended on him financially especially me, being his first born, a graduate and a licensed nurse who is still a bum. Yes. A bum. That's a fact and a sad truth. He is expecting everyone to helped out but almost everyone just sits down and doesn't bother about their own future. On my part I can't do anything. I've tried looking for a job and yet up to now I haven't heard from the HRD of some hospitals that I applied. Oh hell.. Sooner or later I will end up in a call center because I don't have a choice. I have to work or I'll starved and grasped my way to survival. I've been a bum for a year now and its now the time to take in charge of my life and search my place in this world. There are times that I'm giving up and yet I'm still here. Maybe God has a plan for me. I just can't see and figure what it is. As for now, during my free time I do blog to pour down my emotions and somehow earns profit from it. I am now earning through google Thank God. But I haven't got the money yet because it need to reach a 100usd just to encash it. I am still searching for other options to earn money just to help myself.

To my dad,
I am sorry if I failed you. I didn't mean to. I wanna thank you for everything. I will give back to you and to our family everything that you did for me once I got my chance in the world. I promised myself not to get married until I've given you what i truly desire for our family to have. A decent home, a small business, and a happy and relaxing retirement for you and mom. I love you dad. I hope God will continue to bless you because you were such a blessing to us and to others that you have helped. be strong and take good care of yourself..

-your daughter

Fixed Marriage anyone?

I was sleepless for almost 3 days because something bothers me. My mom wanted me to get married because according to her I am not getting any younger. Of course I knew that I am 29yo but that doesn't mean I have to rush in that kind of aspect in my life. But then again my mind won't let me sleep for the thought of it. I am frightened to that idea. Getting married with someone I just knew by his name and simple hi and hello stuff. We are not even friends. And besides I am not ready for the responsibility that binds with marriage. I wanna tell my mom right there and then to live me alone and let me decide for my own life. But I just smiled and shrugged it off..

Well, the silly idea began when Manang, our neighborhood bakery owner talked to my mom that she want me to be her daughter in law. WTF! really in my thoughts i wanna scream WTF! His only son who is a few years older is single also, has no gf and is not dating anyone. So that gave her a thought that we are on the same boat. What a crappy idea! I am not desperate to settle down and have kids. What's holding me was myself. I haven't achieved anything in life. I haven't reached my dreams. I haven't shown everyone my optimum potential. Damn! I just can't settle with someone if me myself isn't settled with myself.

For me marriage is not a joke and its tougher and involves really hard work and a strong mind and a tough heart. I just can't settle down because I have to. It should be because I want to and I'm in love. That's it. Since I am on the quest for my life maybe I'll meet my prince along the way through my journey! I wish!


---- to be continued...

My Puerto Galera Trip

This was our trip last June 2007 with my dear friends who are also nurses like me.. It was my first time in this beautiful Island I was amazed because it was near and accessible and a very near get away outside the metro manila. We actually took the trip after our licensure retake exam.. The place is very lovely, with white sand beach, and activities such as beach volleyball, snorkeling, banana boat ride, flying tsenes, a stroll to the jungle, water fall adventure and swimming of course. Our accommodation has airconditioned rooms, toilet and bath, mini kitchen, and a veranda. Believe it or not each of us spent only 2000php each ($50) including the roundtrip bus and ferry plus 5nights accommodation, plus food and water. Who says you need a tons of money to get somewhere? Whew! A very good stress buster indeed, to travel with friends!

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